Singing Again ~ From The Heart
Since somewhere around March-April 2010 I've been enjoying my voice more and more. As a teen (aroudn 13 yrs of age) I was told by a music teacher I couldn't sing, so I believed it and never sang again, at least not when someone else was around or could hear me. I still sang at concerts when I thought noone would hear me anyways. But I never sang even in a choir even if my heart was longing for it, I actually applied once, but declined when I remembered I actually "couldn't sing". As a child I wanted to be a singer and sang along to all my favourite artists, even recorded myself sometimes...and kinda enjoyed what I heard as I listened to it...and I really enjoyed the music lessons!!! I didn't have the confidence to sing solo, but I really loved to do the "choir" things and did some performances (playback) with some friends on the "big stage". I really enjoyed it until high school, cuz that was when we got a new teacher, and got to do an exame. The exame was divided into three parts, with given grades to each part, that then would be part of the final grade in the mandatory subject of music.. We were all around 12-13 yrs of age... one part was "Theory" (music history, hearing for example "baroque" and recognize it).. the other two were "practical" ~ one of which was to play two different combinations on a drum set. We had to practice at home using our hands tapping on our legs or in the air.. (for the high hat), if not having a whole drum set at home (maybe one of us were lucky enough to have that lol). The other part of the practical exame was to sing along to a predeterminate song, in a predeterminate key that our teacher played on the piano. The song, now looking back, is actually a pretty hard piece with lotsa high notes. And actually we didn't get any guidance more than that we were supposed to sing it by heart. The melody was a known song, so seemed no problem in that regard. And I remember that when I sang it at home to practice it - it actually went pretty alright despite the "high-key parts". But at the test - not only cuz I was nervous to get "evaluated" and be singing "solo" in front of the evaluator,lol but becasue HE PLAYED ALONG in the same key that he always did - that is, I was not able to CHOOSE the "key" I was confortable with (which I had automatically done when practicing at home). Little did I know then (!), I just noticed that I couldn't sing-a-long well at all. And I didn't pass that part of the exame, he told me I couldn't sing, and that was it. No such thing as "there are singing lessons to make it to comfortably sing that high"..or whatever.. Nope.. This made me so ashamed of my voice that I actually never took the step to follow through with taking singing lessons, I actually thought I was "born that way" LOL. But it all shifted for me in 2010. I was at a chanting retreat, and I had been chanting (singing mantras) pretty regularly for a couple of years. I dared to sing it becasue it was a yogic practice, so there was a meditative purpose rather than a "performance"... So ~ although I still really thought I couldn't sing ~ I sang and loved it. "Sing a little Song Project" contest ~ songs for a yogic kids album :))) I've now posted a sneak-a-peak of what I sent in, click HERE to watch it :))) Ps.2: The picutre was found through google images searching "Singing"